Love Always Wins

I’m living in a haze. I’m not exhausted. I’m not depressed. I’m not lonely. I’m not hungover. I’m not anything I’ve ever been before.

I am hurt. I am broken. I am confused. I am full of hate. I am full of love. I don’t understand. I will not understand. I refuse to understand. The moment you understand, the moment you become one of them.

I want to scream at them. Rattle their heads and ask them how? How did they end up this way? How can someone purchase a gun and aim it at someone else? No. How can someone have a gun, legal or not, and aim it at someone else?

Better yet, how can someone support this? How can people sit back and idly believe that this is okay?

Everyone who believes that something shouldn’t change. Everyone who supports the NRA not allowing the government to study these mass murders. Everyone who believes military weapons are justified for purpose to be purchased by a civilian. You’re just like them. You’ve killed each and every person.

By not making a change, we are saying it’s okay for us to kill others. That it’s okay that we have the mass shootings. It’s okay because we’ll do something about it, at some point, some time in the near future, right? WRONG.

Shut up and fucking do something.

I don’t care who I offend. I refuse to hold back. No one should. Everyone has the right to free speech and I’m sorry if you’re sick of me talking about this. I won’t stop. I cannot stop. This has affected me and it should have affected you the exact same way.

When I was back in middle school, I got asked if I was a lesbian. I’m not sure why this person questioned it, I never got an answer. But I took it personally, I got offended, I thought it was a bad thing. A while later, someone tried to tell me that one of my friends was a lesbian, as if it was a reason to ditch her…to despise her because she may like women. And you know what? I contemplated it. But I realized I was bigger than that. Because at the end of the day, why does it matter who you like? It’s hard enough to find love in this world, why do we have to discriminate against those who may?

In high school, I wrote countless research papers on gay rights and same-sex marriage. I don’t know why. I don’t know what my motivation was, but I did. Happily. And now I write novels about homosexuals. And you know what? I used to try and justify why I do. Why do I write about homosexuals instead of heterosexuals? Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Am I part of the + at the end of LGBTQ? I felt like I needed to convince people that I was straight. That people wouldn’t believe me because of what I stood for and I fought small because of it. I spoke my mind, but not nearly enough.

Well, fuck society. I’m done. I’m standing up for what I believe in.

I am a heterosexual woman who believes in equal rights. I write novels with homosexual characters because I believe their stories need to be told. Yes, the two novels I am writing currently have to deal with some serious issues that homosexuals face. I am writing them because they need to be heard, they need to be mainstream. But honestly, in the future, I’m sure my characters will just be homosexual dealing with everyday issues, because you know what? They do. They are just like me and you. I am fighting for something that everyone should fight for. We are fighting for something that shouldn’t have to be fought for. It should be a given.

Everyone is created equal.

If you judge me for it, cool. If you think I’m a lesbian, cool. If you hate me for it, cool. I don’t need you surrounding me or my friends. I will stand up for what’s right. But can I ask you a favor? Please sit down and stop fighting for what’s wrong.

I am exhausted. I am sick and tired of all the bullshit in this country. I am sick and tired of people dying for what they believe in. I am sick and tired of innocent people losing their lives because there are people in this world who have access to guns when they shouldn’t. More guns is never the answer. LESS guns is always the answer. If we fear our streets and need a gun to protect ourselves, it’s most likely because there are other guns on the streets. So what do we do? Take the goddamn guns away.

Yes. You have the right to bare arms. Okay. Cool. But why do you need a gun? I understand hunting. My father is a hunter and I’ve grown up with guns in my house, but have I ever seen them in his hands? No. Have they been used for anything besides hunting? No. Why do we need personal guns for protection? Can someone please explain to me the purpose of these guns? Or military weapons? I’m not for war. Never have been. Never will be. Violence is never the answer, but regardless, those weapons should remain on the war grounds not on our street.

In less than a week, a young woman was murdered while meeting her fans, 49 people were killed in the largest mass shooting in the U.S. and another woman in Oakland was murdered at a vigil. At a damn vigil AFTER the most devastating shooting in our country’s history.

Yet, we are still discussing it. Talking about it, but not doing anything about it.

The first mass shooting should have changed everything. Columbine should have been the last. Sandy Hook have never happened. Why are we still having this discussion?

I may be politically incorrect in some areas. I am still learning, just like you should be. If you’re uneducated, that’s okay, do some research, educate yourself and reach out. Contact your senators, your representatives, congress, whomever you can reach out to. I’ll attach the links below. It will take almost no time at all.

If you’re from NY, Senator Gillibrand and Senator Schumer have voted for background checks on guns, but a disgusting amount of state senators have not. If you’re from one of those states, you need to fight for that too. If you’re from my county, Representative Chris Gibson is who you should send an email to or a phone call.

Have the difficult conversations. Risk the loss of friends or coworkers if it means that you can speak your mind and spread the word.

Love always wins. 
Now let’s prove that.

Love is love is love is love is love is love cannot be killed or swept aside – Lin-Manuel Miranda

Make a difference. Help make the change you want to see in the world.

1) Ban the AR-15 from Civilian Ownership.…/ban-ar-15-civilian-owner…

2) Contact Your Elected Representatives About Gun Control…/it-s-on-us-too-an-easy-guide-to-contac…

3) Did Your Senator Vote for Background Checks?…

4) Tweet Your Congressperson:…

5) More information:


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If you can’t do anything. I’m afraid of you too.

Chelsea Lauren

Chelsea Lauren is addicted to drinking coffee, writing in cafes, and walking the beach. A New York native, she recently moved to Melbourne, FL and found having conversations with her character’s on the beach is the perfect cure to writer’s block. To learn more about her, check out “About Me.” Her debut novel, Underneath the Whiskey, is now available on Amazon.

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  • COMMENT (1)

    1. Bex 15th June 2016 at 8:04 pm -

      I love your heart and newly expressed political concerns/action. Could not be more proud. We will make a difference. Somehow.


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