Music has a unique ability to connect to thousands of people, all suffering through different things, but with one song we still feel understood. It can make you happy, sad, understood, loved, or a myriad of other emotions.
I’ve always been a person who listens to music based on my mood. I rely on the lyrics to let me have a cathartic experience, that I can associate with the artist singing it. This lets me detach what I’m going through, which may be too close to home for me to handle at the moment. But when I associate it in someone else’s life, I can start to work through it on my own.
All my life I have relied on music, but it wasn’t until I was falling into a depression that I gripped onto certain songs and replayed them to get me through the day. I’ve created a playlist on Spotify of most of the songs that have helped me in the past and some songs I’ve listened to in the present that would have helped back then, and do help me to this day. The beautiful and tragic thing about music is that it has the ability to bring you back to the exact moment you listened to it on repeat. It has the ability to bring back those same emotions. There are some songs on here that I cannot listen to anymore–but when they do come on the shuffle, I am reminded of how far I’ve come–and that’s a glorious thing.
My hope is that you can download this playlist and listen to it when you need a helping hand. Sometimes we just need to feel someone understands us even if the person isn’t in front of us. Through the music, we can find a healing power.
Some Songs I Put on Repeat:
- Skyscraper by Demi Lovato – This song came out the night that I first wanted to feel something and kept the razor from my wrist. This is the first song Demi Lovato released after she came out of rehab.
- Self-Conclusion by The Spilled Canvas – This song was on repeat the night I hit rock bottom. This song still gives me chills when it comes on and I try not to listen to it.
- Konstantine by Something Corporate – This song I played on repeat through anxiety and panic attacks. It’s a 9 minute song and I think the length of it helped calm me significantly. To this day, I still use this song when I have bad anxiety.
- Father by Demi Lovato – While this song was written about her late father who suffered from mental illness. I’ve related to this on a level about my own personal experiences with my father. How I do wish him the best, despite him starting a war within me. How without that experience, I wouldn’t be who I am today.
- Piece by Piece by Kelly Clarkson – This is similar to “Father,” but more relatable. This song makes me cry every time I hear it.
- Train Wreck by James Arthur – I came across James Arthur this year and I gripped onto Back from the Edge, his album he released this year. I wish I had this album in my lowest moments, but it came during a low point this year for me and helped me through.
- Secrets for the Mad by dodie – This is a brand new song that just came out in August. dodie suffers from mental illness as well. These lyrics are brilliant for describing how you’ll make it through.
- 1-800-273-8255 by Logic – This is a new song that came out this year. Logic performed it at the VMAs, which was absolutely brilliant and my first introduction to him and the song. The number is the National Suicide Prevention number. This song starts out by saying that he wants to die and goes through the transition at the end of why he isn’t going to kill himself.
Do you have your own self-care playlist? Or certain songs you put on to help you get through? If so, let me know which ones!